Wow! Do I have a beautiful testimony to share today. I have been pondering on this for a
few weeks. Some of you who have read my book Rock Bottom know what I have been thru in this journey we call life. As for those who haven’t I encourage you to do so. I will provide you with some words to help you understand what I am feeling at this moment in time. If someone were to ask me, I’m afraid there isn’t words known to man that can describe how I feel at this time and it just keeps getting better.
I am sharing this hoping to bring joy, hope, and inspiration to those out there who may stumble across this piece of writing that are going thru the same thing that I was experiencing. This is what I do know my friends, when we let go and let God, He is faithful.
Anyway, so I married the most beautiful woman in the world by a lake near our hometown twenty four years ago. Myself, I thought it was going great. However, our marriage dissolved in less than three years. I grew up in a hard way, a way that I always thought was unfair even growing into a young man. At this point in time I didn’t have Jesus in my life. It wasn’t until then that many of my life long questions were finally answered and understanding came to my heart.
Shortly after we were married this beautiful young girl came into this world. I was on top of the world like you would not believe. I had my beautiful wife and now a beautiful daughter. Suddenly that day came when my wife told me to go to my mom and dad’s house for a couple of weeks to think about what I was doing and how it was affecting our family. Yes indeed, I had a bit of a drinking problem. So there it was, I loved to drink, all the men in my family drank, and that’s why I said I grew up in a hard way.
When my wife told me to go my heart was removed from my chest. I didn’t even have what it took to be strong and to be there for my little girl. Anyway, that was the beginning of my great downward spiral. Shortly after the fact, not only was I abusing alcohol, I began to abuse any drug I could get my hands on. I began to get in trouble with the law, lost my job, and everything else that meant anything to me. It was time for the great pity party!
So I was in and out of jail a few times and then ended up going to prison a few times. It was quite the experience, over a decade inside those prison walls. Let’s just say I had more than enough time to think about my life and what I truly needed to do. My father died of ALS while I was inside those walls. That was a traumatic time in my life because I hadn’t seen him for years and I didn’t even know he was sick.
Quite ironic if you ask me. It was that exact tragedy that brought Jesus into my heart. That’s when I truly found him and allowed him to take the wheel while I sat back and listened. I was so excited because I was seeing great things happening in such a dark place. When I found God I still had two plus years before my release. I just said this is it, this is what I am going to do. After all the time I spent in the Word of God and opened my heart to the greatest relationship I have ever experienced in my life, the day came when I got out. What did I do? I continued on just as I was meant to do.
My favorite Scripture is Luke 10:27, And Jesus said, with man it is impossible, but with God all things are possible. It has been quite the journey my friends, believe me. There were many things in my life that I wanted to do, but Jesus had to make the way for me this time around. I was released on December 3, 2009 which enabled me to join my family for Christmas for the first time in a very long time. It was awesome!
We are all human and as a human I never stopped thinking about my daughter or wanting to spend time with her. Things didn’t end so great with her mother and I so she was only doing what she needed to do for the sake of our little girl. Just like with anything else I put it in God’s hands, said Father if it is your will that I know my daughter please do what you do. I left it at that.
It was the year 2000 the last time I saw her. She was three going on four years old. Let me just say it like this, since the day I got out I have waited patiently on the Lord to see if this was ever going to happen. Then one day in June of 2020 I got a phone call, and a couple weeks or so later I met my daughter in person for the first time. All I can say is Glory to God! She will be twenty four years old this year. She is a beautiful wonderful person and doing very well.
God is so good. Jesus, you are the greatest. Thank you for all you have done in my life and for all the blessings that you have brought my way. I am so excited about this new beginning with my daughter and I. I has been wonderful. Honestly, God never stops amazing me. God takes what was meant for evil and turns it around for the good. He’s not finished, he’s working on more miracles in our lives as I write story. So, as the Bible says, faith the size of a mustard seed can move mountains if we only allow him to. We just need to get out of the way and let him do it. He does it better than us anyway, and what’s wrong with that!
I hope you enjoy this story, it’s a miracle and I’m ready for more to come along. You are in my prayers and please be so kind to pray for me as well. God bless you all.